Thursday, June 28, 2007
wtf.
zz it has been really tiring for me since start of school. i'm sick of this.
routine everyday: woken up by a loud screaming voice of my mom. wash up. go school. study. training. go home. stares at the com blankly for the night. sleep. and it follows on and on. Damn, hope i really die soon out of exhaustion, then can escape all this. dozing off in class seems like a routine too now, hmm? oh and yes, i'm sick of everyone. yes everyone.
it seems that none trusts me at all. wtf. am i'm some kind of ppl who cannot be trust? none. i believe NONE really truly trusts me. ah. forget it. yes, i may joke of some things. but am i always seen as a joker? telling me just some simple stuffs are also seem as a bore? right. ok. i know i'm a boring person ok? don't need to remind me of such stuff. and yes those crazy stuff you all discussing behind my back. dont think i dont know. it's just.. i'm lazy to do anything. i'm seriously tired to the bone. yes, just a warning out to ppl who have doing so, dont force me. i may have such tolerance, but hey. tolerance has a limit too. even the most tolerant person in the world has to blow one day. not to mention me, with such tiredness in me?
life sux. big time. i mean, wat's the point of living when one is always troubled by such mortally life-draining events. i'm sick of this. i truly am.
going on about training. yes i gotta have this optimistic mindset in me. not that i do not trust you all enough. it's that maybe sometimes, you guys just aren't having enough enthusiasm in you to win. we can do it. i noe we can. if we put our heart to it. don't know how many of you will read this. but, seriously, endure the pain and we'll cruise through the comp! 9 days. 9 days is very short. just bear with it awhile. and you're freedom is back. we can do it. have faith in yourself!
next on about the squad. ya, maybe i'm nt qualified to say this but, you know it's really damn disappointing to see your own squad having tons of ppl pon-ing, especially when its always the same usual ppl. ya time is going to pass real quick. sec4s going to handover. sec3s taking over. and we're going to be the senior batch. hais. mature up can you? -.-"
rawr. really feel like ending my life right now. maybe i can really free myself that way? sick of it. just sick of it. tired. just tired.
don't bother asking why i'm posting such stuff. i'm really tired.
none of you can understand how i feel right nw.
i yawned @ 5:18 AM;
