Thursday, October 4, 2007
pardon this emo post.
i think it sucks to be me.
nothing awaits me at home.
nothing pushes me forward.
everyday i just go in a routine,
wake up, go school, go home,
face the 4 walls and face my comp.
nothing to do.
nothing.
just
nothing.
this bugs me.
everyday i sit infront my comp,
happily waiting and waiting,
just waiting,
just waiting,
waiting eagerly,
just for something to do,
just for someone to talk to,
just to show concern for u.
the sad truth is,
nothing intrigues me more den it.
yet, i'm always deeply hurt
but ur bluntness
and ur lack of concern.
i weep silently in the night,
for fear of being asked why,
yet there's no one i can talk to.
i don't know why.
i don't know how.
i'm just a sucky person with no life and no social skills.
two words people
i suck.
u noe, i've just got reminded of a song that really fits me
and it goes like this:
You're PitifulMy life is brilliant...
What, was I too early? Oh, sorry. Should I...Do you wanna start over?
Or, keep going? Okay, now? Now?
My life is brilliant
Your life's a joke
You're just pathetic
You're always broke
Your homemade Star Trek uniform really ain't impressin' me
You're sufferin' from delusions of
Adequicy
You're Pitiful (X3) It's true
Never had a date
That ya couldn't inflate
And ya smell repulsive too
What a bummer bein' you
Well ya just can't dance
And forget romance
Everybody you know still calls ya Farty Pants
:
But you always have a job well I mean
As long as you still can work that slurpie machine
You're Pitiful (X3) It's true
You're half undressed
Eatin' chips of your chest
While you're playin' Halo 2
No one's classier than you
Lalala la
Lalala la
Lalala la Loser
You're Pitiful (X3) It's true
Your dog would much rather
Play fetch by itself
You still live with your Mom and you're 42
Guess you'll never grow a clue
When it just sucks to be you
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Sigh, seeing u happy just makes me happy,
even though i might be really down in my heart.
it just cheers me up,
seeing u happy.
cos, well it doesn't really matter if i'm happy or not,
cos, i don't know why,
just seeing ur happy face makes me cheer up.
but it seems that the happy smile from ur face,
always seems to get rubbed off,
always by me.
i'm sorry.
i wanna apologise bad.
i wanna apologise.
i'm sorry,
really sorry.
its just that,
i don't know why,
i don't know how,
i keep thinking of u,
always and always,
but not seeing ur happy face,
i feel down,
and down,
and down,
all the way to the end of the bottomless pit.
the truth's out.
i suck,
and i apologise for that,
maybe,
just maybe,
it could be better,
if only i wasn't so sucky.
i'll change myself just for u,
no matter wat odds there are,
i'll always be changing myself,
all for u,
and i hope u appreciate,
or rather,
know that i am actually doing so.
sorry.
i yawned @ 7:45 AM;
