Tuesday, February 26, 2008
i guess its funny that i only post whenever i feel emo. ye. this sux.
i've no idea what i'm doing with my life people. school seems like an endless routine that i just force myself to do. homework comes pouring down over and over again. comp training blasts my life to pieces with extra things to do, memorise S&S, team stuff, blablabla. argh, i'm sick of this damnit. i hate my life.
can i pls go suicidal someday and just jump down a building and end it all? I wanna end this all.
concentrate, bing le, concentrate, ur bio's failing, ur physic's failing and i'm sure the only subject to pull u up will fail u too. GG's the word, people, GG. i'm a gone case damnit.
had promotion parade today. it set me thinking this: "shit, we're gonna take over soon, fk, comp's coming soon and FK its the last comp that i'll probably join". i don't noe whether its considered something to cheer about or something to moan about. i don't wanna lose that trophy again. i don't wanna fail my physics. i don't wanna disappoint mrboey in his attempts to get the class bio's standard up. i don't wanna fail everyone.
i've disappointed many people before and it hurts. those permenant scars of damage in my heart. i hate this damnit. slack is the way to go. oh damn, i miss my sec2 year and i miss 2E. damnit. those standard phrases of qi1 li4 etc etc the classic WTF sign pointed by yingxue, the endless notoriety we've gone through, the laughs we shared and the tears we shared. this sux. time oh endless great master of the universe, time, lets bring us back to sec2 and oh almighty, let us experience de ja vu.
seesh. results seem so superficial. why can't anyone understand the importance is in the process? sigh. it seems everyone is so over their results now. i'm sick of that. i'm sick of the politics of the situations i'm in. i'm sick of everything. i guess it's time to end all this, to set myself straight, to set myself in the correct direction. i can't slack anymore. bing le, u can do this. bring urself some control. sseeeeeessssssssshhhhhh.
ARGH! THAT'S IT! it's decided:
1. I will care more about my studies from now on(hopefully)
2. Competition, ur going down! we'll own the asses of zone9
3. Discipline is definitely gonna improve. NYGHS discipline, here i come:)
4. stop sleeping in class bing le.
RAWR! i feel noob with all these incoherent talking. seesh.
and i love u no matter wat.
i yawned @ 7:03 AM;
